Punctuation of My Thoughts…

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Friday, September 25, 2026

Journaling and writing are good for the soul

 (This is NOT Ai generated)

Y. Janene Ash - brainsondeck@ifightmagazine.biz 

I woke this morning feeling" free", frustrated, perplexed, and pissed off, one in the same. I thought about "my place and standing" in the world I live; and for whatever reason, I kept thinking, life REALLY is nothing more than a series of symbols and punctuation.

We experience stops represented by periods, excitements expressed as exclamations, we ponder questions with curly looking marks and pause with commas, all the time. We share spaces forward and backward, with one another, and, with wisdom, we learn to take moments to slow down, (dot, dot, dot).  We spend lots of time with “quote-unquote”, “family” and “friends”. Often, we are literally held hostage by the over-use of and parenthesis in our lives. Most of us are surrounded by people and ambushed by circumstances that [keep us feeling bracketed, stagnant, isolated, and alone].

The more this concept of punctuation flowed through my mind, the more I wanted to confirm the “textbook,” and these days, Ai definition of what we choose to agree, punctuation actually means, especially, since life as most of us know it, would be conversationally chaotic, and perhaps too phonetically “fluid” for interpretation, without it.

The pomp and circumstance AND illusional reality of education, (public or not), is that it was only designed to keep us higher (as in elevated) in student loan debts and the stupor of manufactured mindsets of fear, ignorance and hate and separation. Regardless of color, we all get degreed in plantation politics, and learn the "need to be mastered", mentalities. We run down systematized halls of “hell” backed by academia, everywhere, oblivious that EVERY DAMNED BODY, INCLUDING THOSE “EDUCATED” INTO THINKING THEY ARE NOT, ARE INDEED, MENTALLY ENSLAVED… even when and if, unknown, or perhaps unaccepting, of this truthful fact.

There is a distinct difference between knowledge and information.

Knowledge, information and education, in the wrong hands, is most definitely a weapon and has been weaponized for centuries.  Correct knowledge, information and education is a defense and asset, to and for us all. The saying goes, "What you don't know can harm you." Actually, what you DO KNOW can harm you even worse. When the brain is not fed, or not fed properly it will eventually die. Dead minds have neither need nor ability and responsibility, to think...

False knowledge would not and could not exist within the realm of “conscious thought and the seeking of social-spiritual elevation” pure and free from interference of the ego or she-go. When taught to question, you learn to think and figure. You develop self sufficiency and the ability to teach others to sustain themselves as well.

If teaching love and decency were more esteemed and encouraged, regardless of anything, and we had true concern for each other’s well-being, rather than the idolatry of over-priced, under-achieving certificates, diplomas, degrees and the dissertations of those willing to be “masters of the herd” – who whip sanctimonious insanity into the “mentality of the people, poor of pure thoughts”, then this world would absolutely and unanimously flourish.

The self-imposed acceptance of lack, caused by GLOBAL GREEDINESS, EVILS done by demons, designer dressed, and the absence of true faith (but LOTS of religion), in the beautifully eclectic and DIVINE DESIGN AND ORDER of the Uni (as in one) verse, does not have to be how those of us living during these times, have to be written down, remembered and discussed, (in her stories and his stories) punctuated and read by she, him and her, once we’re all dead and gone.

According to research, Punctuation refers to the system of symbols used in writing to clarify meaning, separate structural units, and dictate the flow or tone of text. Without it, sentences would be difficult to read and interpret. So, “they” say.  Whomever/whatever “they” should happen to be, or say they are.

I pray that it’s safe to ass-u-me that the information I found in my research, also available to some of the masses via a simple “internet search” is fair game for use in “honest AND GENUINE sharing, and “free-thinking” intellectual thought”. (While I was at it, I searched the “definition” of the term “google” as well).  Most people trust that information and knowledge sought “taught” and “learned” is reputable, legit, not “illegal” or diluted by any "illicit immigrations'” utilized by cited sources with perhaps… ulterior motives, at heart. 

Safe general assumption is that, since it can be easily and accessed, for “free” it should, theoretically, be safe for mental consumption and ingestion (especially when backed by law), not requiring fear of “exploitations, modifications, or deportations” from the mind. Correct?

You know…healthy “food for thoughts”. Information that “feeds and nourishes minds”. Education that actually expands and encourages thinking, and common sense.

While assuming all of this, I also pondered over the meanings and usage behind the symbols, (that I’ve used in verbal and written expressions literally millions of times), over the courses of my life. I have a fair enough “grasp of the language and know how to use the king’s english”, on prompt, however, for a brief moment, I questioned my ability to truly decipher and process all the information and “knowledge” I have allowed space in my head for, all of my life.

And, is it just me, or can anyone else relate? 

For the record, and should you care to know, I do not nor have I ever (or will I ever) considered myself to be a “dumb nigger” or an “angry black bitch”. I am most definitely, not anyone’s “stupid hoe” by any stretch of the imagination.  *I have, incorrectly and I can assure you, regrettably, been called all those words, typically punctuated with anger (displaced or not), as well as several other inaccurate titles, at some point in my life. Although they are merely words, with both personal and institutional meanings, the inherent symbolisms and definitions behind each word, separate from the other, as well as grouped together as a string of thoughts, has and will always mean “the presence of hate and danger” and a personal reminder that “iFIGHT” and will fight, both with the vocabulary of words within my mind, and with anything handy, in order to survive.

A "First Place" trophy, golf club, baseball bat, knife... get the picture?

I know for fact, I am not alone in my need and ability (and definitely not my desire) to fully understand why the prerequisite for acceptance of me and to receive common decency, in this symbolically and systematically hateful world, CONSTANTLY requires me to “code-switch”, and cosplay cross-culturally compromising CRAP, (just as many other WOC do, all the time), simply, just to thrive and survive!

We live in different times, with different narratives. Or so we are tricked into believing. Many descendants and ancestors before us, fought hard, for the right to learn and read and write... and to be afforded bare minimal, and basic human rights. The fight continues for ALL people of this land to be treated fairly, even if it is a fight for rights falsely written in STOLEN CONSTITUTIONS (marked with the TEARS FROM MANY EYES, LEFT TO DIE AND CRY, ON MANY TRAILS THROUGH STOLEN LANDS). Trails running through lands built on sweat and blood on stained black and brown backs. Just to be misappropriated and trust funded as theme parks and expensive dog races, and scenes for VIP fugitive chases. We officially vote and elect folks that design and legislate laws and party lines that blatantly remind us to "know our worker bee places" and, that we better continue operating as puppet "races" or risk having to navigate legally crooked systems, spending time in monetized cell spaces.

I guess a lot of what I know and have overstandings in life about comes from what has been diligently and intrusively taught to me “far-right” and in the spirit of sodomizing my brain with lots of “incorrect” information, calculated confusion, and occluded codes that were never meant to be cracked. *Thankfully, I make conscious choices to always question what I am being taught, and perhaps to think. 

Shouldn’t we all?

With constant study and being a seeker of PERSONAL & UNIVERSAL TRUTH, I can also take educated guesses and bet it all on the fact that just as much information and things learned in my life, were done to discourage any spiritual growth and to dilute desires for personal exorcism of the mind. The type of longing for fulfillment that comes from consciously seeking truth, and not just grasping rote programmed information.

The farther I went down this particular rabbit hole, the farther this whole thought of punctuation took me; into an even deeper well of thoughts. Especially, researching the definition of the word “english” I began to truly realize just how powerful words, and the symbols and the meanings behind them can be. The most enlightening aspect or perhaps frightening aspect (depending on how you choose to frame things) concerning language, is how easily it can be manipulated to control thoughts.

Controlled thoughts are dangerous. Controlling your own thoughts, is power, and powerful! 

The thought process to this realization came quietly while sitting quiet and content on my “peace porch” among my plants and “fur baby friends”…

 …and what a loud epiphany of sorts, it most definitely was…

 …if you can understand, read, write, speak “english”, and/or, MOST ESPECIALLY if you claim it as your “native” or “first” language, AND, live in the colonies renamed as "united" states, you have subconsciously been programmed to believe and perhaps, thoughtlessly accept that, the words spoken are indigenous to the lands, in these “americas” and places we use them.

Therefore, if we are "united" living in the states of america, we are inescapably linked together in everything that is thought in our world.

"Reality" is articulated in what we speak and do, or perhaps do not speak and will not do. That means, if one person on this planet is hurting (whether we are aware of or acknowledge their existence or not), then you and I are suffering as well, even in the midst of our wealth and abundances. Pain, hate, fear and other funky feelings emit low frequencies and vibrational energies. Hue-man beings are portals and receptors. We were divinely designed to both give and receive. These are the foundations for LOVE.

We (on all sides of the fence and over all kinds of walls), feed the lie and misconception of being "educated and smart" to our children… almost as soon as they open their eyes and immediately when we open our mouths to teach them anything we think we have inalienable right to teach and infuse into their minds.

The download and transfer of generational trash and BULL CRAP!

Well guess what? We have failed and we continue to fail ourselves and our children, miserably if we don’t ADAMANTLY teach knowledge AND love of self and the ability to distinguish between knowledge and "propaganda and information”.  One frees and opens the mind, the other, freezes and oppresses it. Keeping it closed and perhaps dark. 

We program our “offspring” to resonate with the same old and outdated symbols and punctuations in life. Those of our minds, and our parents' minds, and the minds before us, thereby, proving we are super deserving of the extra credits and all the accolades for the generationally insane covenants we make everywhere:  to continuously feed the gluttonous belly of the global sized-beast [birthed from the sadistic love of hate, greed, ignorance and fear], even if at the expense of well-orchestrated genocides, mass destructions and demurely designed demise.  *No matter the continent or “alien” planet or lands you happen to immigrate from or stand on…

Foreign tongues ruling native lands.

Same scenarios, everywhere!  Isn’t that the history and premise behind ALL wars, systems and people diabolically programming and keeping “other” people at odds with one another???? By manipulating the meaning of the sounds that come from the mouth and mind, there then is TRULY no need to place too much concerted emphasis on enslaving the “behind.”

Focusing on differences is absolutely, necessary and great.  Especially when done so simply in respect and adoration of the exponential potentialities hidden within the “diversity of our differences, within our differences”.  When we stop ignorantly proscribing to a false, perhaps paganistic, (most definitely barbaric) belief that people cannot simply co-exist, in spite of the natural fears attached to our differences, then none of us will truly ever experience power, peace and prosperity… anywhere, in this “silly little rabbits” world we are all puppets in.

We (and our babies) will always be “manufactured little pigs-in-a-blanket”, conceived and birthed and designed to be weak links in the chains of our own minds. We are only as strong as our weakest thought. It's most convenient for us to be dumb assess thinking thoughts of racism, sexism, genderism, colorism, blah, blah, blah. Weak links (regardless of hue... as in skin color, realities, beliefs and ideations), miss the concept and definition of TOGETHER. 

United, we stand? Are you kidding? Divided we have been falling and failing, for centuries... and we will continue to fall and fail TOGETHER as people, until we the people redefine what "we" stands for, and agree on how "people" should be treated, period. Most importantly, we need to fully understand that it is "we" who are willing to elect and/or allow "others" to make those definitions of and for us.

The thing about chains, in order to be bound by them, you must first believe and accept the definition, symbolism and “majority and general consensus” of being oppressed and in a state of oppression, in order to be fully enslaved. Systematic and mental enslavement cares absolutely nothing about the “race, color or hue” of skin. Its focus is, divide, conquer, pillage, slaughter, rape, tell lies, cover-up, recruit minions, then repeat.

Because language has the ability to nourish and expand the mind, it can be weaponized and used as a means of domination and control.

 In a world where "bottom line" is status quo, we must remember that truly, the only "business" hue-man beings need to actually be tending to is loving self and loving others! Especially, those that are deserving and needing of our love and attention. Instead of being stuck in the perpetual loop of "business as usual" poop, folks REALLY and TRULY need to “get busy”... caring for self, and for each other. And not just from a “HUGE tax write-off” and “I paid my tithes”, OR…”this will look good on my resume, and social media feeds”, type of mentalities.

Humanity is suffering, specifically and in general, FROM ONE END OF THIS GLOBE TO ANOTHER. “First”, “second”, “third” and “other-worldly or not, is hurting.  It’s obvious from the blatant display of division and discourse, but not a god-be-damned thing really being done about all the f@$%&$ up things being spiritually co-signed with, in “our” world today. And whether we want to be, or through action (or lack thereof), choose to be part-and-party to the travesties and atrocities of life, or not, we are co-dependently involved, by virtue of association of human relationship.

We all “live and exist” in the “here and now”, during these moments in time, TOGETHER.  Regardless of how we stand, where we stand, or who we choose to stand up for, or perhaps stand up to or with, the habitually over-looked fact that “YOU ARE HERE”, “among the living, walking dead in works and sympathy” means that we can indeed either be, or become part of the problems in this “SMALL WORLD” we live in. 

Or, we can choose to pledge allegiances only with alliances which have peace, love, prosperity, wealth, health, hope, wisdom, kindness and all the other HIGH-VIBRATIONAL ENERGIES and room for representation, from us all! We all should be allowed to show up at the table with our individual beautiful gifts and talents to be shared with human-kind.

NOTHING IS TRUTH-FULLY BROADCASTED from the “ACCURATELY FAKE, FALSE & PROPOGANDIST” NorthEastWestSouth CHANNELS, being watched on tell-lie-visions, everywhere. Our “blind eyes” are watching each other, singing and sanctifying to “deaf ears listening” while invisibly dirty hands are participating, everywhere.

simply…

…because by default, those of us in agreement with being labeled by the terms, “people”, “human”, “members of “hue-manity”, are all born selfish and egotistical by default of DNA construction. That means time must be spent learning and working on self. At all times.  Especially since survival of self is how all things are wired.

As infants one of our first expressions of our “needs” is articulated as “demands” in the form of some type of wanting (satisfaction of self)…whether it is wanting to be fed, held, changed, picked up, burped, fed, played with, talked to, fed, bathed, changed, protected, directed, spiritually, mentally and physically nourished, fed, cherished, and most importantly, loved. Unconditionally.

Anyone and anything that does not, or cannot understand love, has the hidden potential to be, or to become insidious. Therefore, and technically, very, very dangerous. Both to themselves and to others. The “secret” and “cheat-code” regarding L-O-V-E. R.E.A.L L.O.V.E, is that it withstands the ebbs of time and it can handle the tests and tribulations of insurmountable odds. It knows no boundaries. It sees and operates above and beyond human frailties, faults and imperfections.

There are definitive distinctions between darkness and light, “wicked” and  “good”. These days, the world, planet, good, ole’-assed, Mother Earth, is inhabited by people, herded and processed and eaten, (important parts of the food chain), just like all the other now extinct animals. Things are very confusing and colluded, everywhere. People are being stolen and trafficked - as it is broadcasted and discussed, and "we the people" continue cosigning and buying out cinemas and funding campaigns, in masse, just so our judges and jezebels and emmy award winning entertainers (perhaps jesters), can lavishly elect to put gas in their yachts and jets.

Unfortunately, and technically, most of us are, or perhaps are becoming, de-sensitized and sanitized from our own humanity. The "matrix, system, sick, virus infected simulation”, and/or UNIVERSALLY AND HISTORICALLY SADOMASOCHISTIC, NIGHTMARE (please, feel free to choose whichever terms resonate best), that “we the people" live in (whether we the people admit these “mistruths” to be absolutely evident or not, and regardless as to our specific and individual “geo-locations”), ONLY wants us, all of us, (regardless of race, “color”, political affiliation, gender, gender identity or ideation, ethnicity, or any other irrelevant indifferences that "we the people” proscribe to), to feed it and believe and praise and worship everything about its existence.

“Truth” just because it’s written and punctuated in religious texts, laws and books, does not mean it is not to be challenged and changed.

Whew, the “puppet masters and mistresses” and/or “pain peddlers, and pimps, parading as preachers and prophits and poli-trick-cians, who most times only have bottom lines and getting their “fair share” of their tithes, commissions and under-the-table cuts, funneled through programs, best selling movies and books, and “non-profits” strongly rooted in “old money” fueled by the dreams and narcissistic desires of the “nouveau riche” want us regular ole’ people to spend ALL of our divine and sacred and physically limited time and energies here on Mother Earth, delusionally distracted, consumptively impacted, frequencies fractured, and absolutely spiritually unhinged and disengaged, chasing national pig skin peddlers and 3D printed pop stars, in location tracking cars, dressed half naked like wanna be stars, in unaffordable clothing, that’s killing us.

The systems within the systems, you know, religious institutions, educational institutions, prison institutions, government institutions, corporate and organizations built on stolen constitutions, with no concerns or feelings of guilt or need of reparations and restitutions, to indigenous and stolen people.

In a nutshell, we are all “slaves to the constant rhythm” of all the selfish and typically misogynistic bullshit that we ingest in (overdose amounts).

Principalities in high places, forever concocting new and “approved” drugs, to get us hooked on more than just phonics. The diabolical plans appear to definitely be working on the millions of just aspiring to be average Joe Blows and Jane Blunts out there. Most people live day-to-day with socially scripted media lives. The focus on hating and berating ourselves and our fellow hue-man beings appears to be a mutation and manipulations of our psyches. We have access to information via intellectual super-highways, that were strategically designed to marginalize, criminalize and systematize, and use hue-man frailties and the indignations of man and woman kind, to oppress and profit from us all.

Everything is right in front of our noses, yet no one seems to hear or see, let alone actually feel and care that there is anything even remotely off, imbalanced and generally stank and festering about “our world”, as we presently accept it to be.  If we did, the things which “shouldn’t happen (and it’s SUPER CRAZY they even exist), like the trafficking of babies and bodies and the laundering, looting and shooting that goes on in this world, globally and cross-culturally. AND, the many other heinous covenants and contracts being secretly blood signed and co-signed by people who sell their souls, for stacks of stolen gold and glory, would not be. Not to mention, how we the people place paper votes (these days electronic) fueled by habitually documented misguided hopes, with folks blinded by the glitz and glimmer of being able to get away with as much as they can, like fat rats, taking full advantage of the privilege of trust of constituency.  

 How are these travesties accomplished?

Mind and spirit control... They make for easy exploitation and manipulation of the masses of jackasses, that "we the people", collectively carry ourselves as, OR, perhaps we really are.

We place focus on net profits, and ROI's, redlining, and baselining, corporate mergers and corrupt takeovers, billionaires bailing, balling and empire building (WHILE STEALING & TOUCHING CHILDREN)... and getting away with it all just because they have friends getting high in typically VERY HIGH places, using all the filthy cheat codes and lots of dirty cash money to stimulate and simulate, and then to ejaculate in cities magic with titillations and illicit exploitations from one end of the globe and back.

And ooh, dare we do not forget to collectively remember all the other "folks poor" while failing... the American “nightmare” sold to all of us as a dream (whether we happen to be "woke" and watching, or not). You know, those sitting at sidewalk gutter tables, eating food from trash bin buffets followed by all they can take of the desserts of degradation and selfish behaviors of our "fellow box checked" neighbors... arrogantly proud of designations of being dedicated sentinels and minstrels and mind-crafters of injustice, greed and a whole lot of guns, controlled by those benefiting from allowing us to pull the triggers of hate… on ourselves, and on each other.

People tikking and tokking, all up in each other's faces, when they could just as well choose to be reading a book (that is not yet banned), or writing one, that heals and saves nations. Everyone caught up in a HUGE tube of "me looking at you, you looking at me", and the numbers are still out on how many of us are hopelessly hooked on those instant and intoxicating, grams of glimpses into the life and worlds of someone other than SELF!

We are “fast-fed” organic nonsense and misaligned malarky, at 5G speeds with instant downloads and upgrades and lots of opportunities to interact and partake of anything and everything... voluntarily or perhaps not. We witness, record, document and dissect death, destruction and devastation along with all the other undignified disgraces. Done daily, hourly, incessantly, just like well programmed Ai inventions. And, just as many of us find ourselves "arrested" without any true plans for development. A lot of dumb shit is flying and hitting fans.  The virus we need to isolate and address and definitely need a quick fix for is, and always has been HATE.  It’s the story of humankind…hate self = hate others, with confidence and conviction.

Most of us have been mentally and spiritually sodomized and/or abused in one way or another. Yes, we have. All of us. Period! Whether it be in our passive and co-signing acceptances of obvious BS in this world, {most often perpetuated by the dissemination of manufactured hate and force-fed divisions, dominations, subjugations, discriminations, and blatant insensitivities to the overall divine-ness of life}. We are also used by our continued faith and strong belief in evil ideals and “buying into” outdated idiocracies, AND, the real dumb asses (some praise as leaders), who delusionally design systems which never have had a MF’ing thing to do with anything diverse… other than the diversifications of their portfolios, far and wide. 

The "leaders and thinkers" that are absolutely NOT concerned with diversity, and the power of mixed energies and ideas coming TOGETHER, thinking and working in one accord.

Therefore, the powers that “we the people” allow to be, use strong punctuation and secret SYMBOLS AND SOCIETIES to make sure we hue-mans remain cluelessly programmed. In that regard then, free-thinking (whatever that is) has never and will never actually be “free”...everything comes with a cost in this WORLD.

This world, our world, that I choose to take time and study, is far from being NEW, and doesn’t need the meddling and mayhem of mankind to maintain and fulfill DIVINE ORDERS! It does though, need WOMBSmen to stand up and speak out loudly and clearly. It is we who literally carry us into each new generation. As long as we are "ok" with all the things happening around us that really and truly ARE NOT "OK" the world will continue her spirals in "hell here on Earth"...

My Grandmother Weezie always said, "We're all the same in life and death... everybody takes a dump and, we all rot when we die...”

Punctuation of MY thoughts…

Share YOUR thoughts, please!